Have you ever felt like you are trying to get somewhere, but it is taking forever? You seem to run in to every obstacle, and people are not responding to you according to your time schedule. I feel that way right now.
We have our house on the market and are hoping to move back into town near our friends and church. However, things are just not coming along quickly enough for me. I have my toddler enrolled in two different schools and my nine year old enrolled in a private school in September. I’m relying on the fact that we will be living in our new house by then.
I know that God has his schedule, and He will work all this out to His glory. But, lately, I wonder if I matter. I feel sort of left out and unloved by my Father. I’m reminded of how the Israelites struggled trying to cross Jordan River. God took them by a longer route to avoid unforeseen dangers that they may have encountered.
The Israelites wanted to take the shorter way to the Promise Land and could not understand why they were being led to go the long way. As time went on, they were trapped between the mountains and the sea. This is where I see myself: trapped between the mountain of moving and the sea of staying, all the while yelling, “MOVE THAT MOUTAIN!”
Here I am standing in the middle of the Jordan River and I see my life and my schedule on the other side of the mountain, and I am not allowed to cross. I’m trying to grasp that God can see the end of my journey and to trust that He knows the best route possible for my family and me. I need to be content where I am and know that He is in control. After all He is a Father; and if I stand still where I am and be content, He personally will guide me across the Jordan.
“Moses answered the people, ‘Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The Lord will fight for you; you need only be still.’”
– Exodus 14: 13-14 (NIV)
“Father, today I feel stuck looking up at the mountain of uncertainty and wondering why it’s not moving. I know You personally have a purpose tailored made just for me. In my heart I know You love me and You are waiting for Your perfect timing. God, You are so awesome and beautiful. Help me with my most pressing faith challenge today….”
Spiritual Chick with Wings