I have discovered the hard way how powerful our thoughts can be. I realized that I needed to stop my every thought in micro-second speed and check it out and interrogate it before it made its way further into my mind and set up residence. If it was able to forge a home in my mind, it would be free to return at will holding me prisoner to its influences.
I had occasions where my husband would say something that I would take the wrong way, and I would be reduced to tears. My mind would be flooded with all kinds of thoughts ranging from “I deserve better than this,” to “He doesn’t love me anymore.”
The more I wallowed in those thoughts, the more my mind rambled; and at the end of my pity party, I’d always feel worse than before. One day, however, after thinking about the captivity of thoughts, my husband said something and I went sulking into another room.
As I began to mumble the same old thoughts again, I stopped and decided to try this captivity thing. I had a discussion with myself and laid out the negative thoughts one at a time and matched them each with reality. The “He doesn’t love me anymore” was the first to fall. I lined up the acts of love that my husband does for me on a daily basis.
Many times he goes beyond his arthritis comfort zone to be of service to me. When I pictured the tenderness and sensitivity in his eyes, I knew that he loved me, no matter what thought was trying to get in. I remember saying out loud with a little laugh, “That’s crazy! I know he loves me!”
It was as if I had instantly shot that thought down with a bazooka! I felt release, and I proceeded with the next thought. That afternoon was so liberating; and as God is my witness, those thoughts have never entered my mind again.
“We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.”
– 2 Corinthians 10:5 (NIV)
“Dearest Lord, help me to remember to be watchful and shine the light of truth on each thought before I allow it take residence in my mind. I want nothing but the truth in me. I desire to stay free in You so that I can be a victorious, effective witness to all. Help me demolish current negative thoughts that are robbing me of joy, including . . .”