I have an extremely large and very visible scar on my left hip. It is one of many. My scars symbolize months of incomprehensible physical pain and suffering. These bodily scars are connected to an overabundance of non-visible scars that represent incomprehensible emotional pain and suffering. These emotional scars bring back horrible memories of ambulance rides, life flights, BiPAPs, central lines, vascular filters, catheters, bed pans, chest tubes, leg traction, nerve pain, hundred plus hours of physical rehabilitation, morphine detoxification, crutches, wheelchair, walkers, shower chairs, ... Read the Post
Soiled
I was lying in a hospital bed in severe pain, body broken, unable to move, alone in the dark, physically and mentally exhausted but unable to sleep due to the pain. This was the story of my life for an entire February. On this particular night, I had urinated all over myself. My body, hospital gown, and sheets were soaking wet. Due to my broken bones, I was unable to lift my body on a portable potty, and the nurse staff was too busy to assist me. My pride felt as shattered as my body. At 3:00 a.m. I remember looking at the ceiling crying and whispering to God. I told Him that I could ... Read the Post
Full Godly Potential
Whoever said loving God made life “easy” was completely mistaken. The closer I get to God, the more character flaws I find in myself, and the more He asks me to change. I feel like I am trapped in a hard exterior and God is showing me how to break my way out. Over the past few months, I constantly prayed for God to speak to me louder and give me the ears to hear Him better. Now I hear His voice loud and clear all the time! Every day He tells me things such as, “Change this character flaw,” “You are better than this,” “Spend more time with Me,” “Watch your words,” “Get your heart right,” and ... Read the Post
Stress
I, like many women, have a HUGE problem with stress. It seems like I am always stressed out over something or another. Most of my stress stems from worldly worries, such as does this person like me, is there dust under my couch, what birthday gift do I have to buy next, what type of jeans are currently in style? About a month ago, I was browsing around in Half Price Books and came across a self-help book discussing stress. It discussed the many long term implications of stress, including allergies, digestive disorders, anxiety, headaches, heart disease, high blood pressure, insomnia, ... Read the Post
Christianity and the Art of Motorcycle Riding
I was flipping channels while doing my daily 30 minutes on my elliptical as usual. I normally watch E-television or VH1 when I work out, even though, deep inside, I know I shouldn’t. I rationalize my ungodly TV viewing by thinking, “I only watch TV while I work out and 30 minutes of ungodly television won’t hurt me.” Joyce Meyers is also on the television when I work out, but I immediately skip over her channel. Another rationalization, “How can I work out while thinking about godly growth? I won’t be able to concentrate.” Therefore, I watch E-Television, so I can be updated on all the ... Read the Post