After leaving the family nest to go to college, I got a little off track! I strayed from the path. I wasn’t going crazy, like going out partying and drinking. I just was lost because I did not have a good Christian foundation. I was five hours from home without a church and church-going friends.
Everyday was the same: I went to class and hung out with friends. I was living in my own world that I had fooled myself into believing was good. Then, one day I believe God got tired of watching me wander around aimlessly, so He called out to me.
He woke me up and told me to look around me and see the chaos. I had created this chaos by living a life that I thought was great. Boy! Did I get a wake-up call. I look back now and see that I was in a trance. My life seemed perfect, but it was an illusion the Enemy had created.
When God spoke, it was like a veil lifted from my eyes, allowing me to see the real world I was living in. When I looked around me and saw the truth, I thought I would die! I, of course, asked God the classic questions: How could I have gotten here? How could I have allowed myself to get so lost? I was completely blind!
Now when I look back, I can start to gain understanding of why my life unfolded as it did. I also know why God allowed me to get to that low point in my life. He showed me that when I forgot about Him, He NEVER forgot about me. He was always there for me and always will be. Now I never lose sight of Him.
There is no worse feeling than waking from a bad dream and realizing that you’re living it. I did not realize how lost I was until my Father reached out His hand and walked me back home.
“Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Does he not leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’”
– Luke 15:4-6 (NIV)
“Lord, there are times when I find myself where I’m not supposed to be, and somehow You are always there to guide me back. Thank You for remembering me even when I forget You. I pray for those in my life who are lost and need to be brought back home, including…”