Yesterday was one of my hardest days. I woke up weighed down and burdened by the challenges facing my family. The stresses of finances, slow to come promises and past regrets threatened to plunge me into a state of depression. I repeatedly kept encouraging myself through song, verses and sermons on Daystar and The Word Channel.
After a while, I felt like I needed to scream, so I excused myself from the family and went into the bathroom. I closed the door behind me and sat on the ground in the dark and cried out to the Lord silently: “Jesus help me please!”
While in tears, I kept asking that He not see my tears as a lack of Faith. I just felt overwhelmed. Once I had cried it all out, I wiped my tears away and went back to the family. (Nope! They didn’t even notice.) My cell phone rang and I was happy to see that it was the love of my life. I told him how I felt and he prayed with me. I started to feel a bit revived, but I was still a little down.
While walking into the living room, I could hear the preacher on the Word Network. He said, “Sometimes you gonna have to tell the Lord, ‘Lord, this here is too big for me. You gonna have to handle it while I keep going.’”
I then realized that God wanted me to know my struggles were too much for me, and I need to hand them over to Him. A few minutes later we received a call from my Aunt Jackie in Haiti, and I asked her how she was doing. She said, “I still have just the clothes on my back, but I am alive so praise God!”
After speaking to her for a few minutes, I began to rejoice and praise God because He used my aunt to remind me to praise Him in all circumstances. Sometimes life’s challenges will get you down and broken-hearted. In those times when I feel lost and don’t know what to do, I remember Donnie Mcklurkin’s song which advises me to: “Child you just stand when there’s nothing left to do/You just stand/Watch the Lord see you through/Yes, after you’ve done all you can/You just stand.”
Donnie is right. After you’ve cried and pleaded and done all you can, you need to stand and let God handle it. I admit it is hard to stand still when you don’t know where your mortgage payment is coming from or when your next meal will be.
However, I am persuaded that the same Jesus who fed a multitude of over 5,000 with 5 loaves and 2 fish and still managed to have 12 baskets leftover, can and will handle my problems. The same Jesus told the storm “Peace! Be still!” and it listened. He surely can silence the storms in my life. This is why I have decided to stand still and wait on the Lord.
“Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”
– Psalm 46:10 (NIV)
“Dear Lord, I am burdened and overwhelmed by life’s burdens. and I need You to help me to STAND. Lord, I know that You are capable of speaking peace into my storms. Teach me to turn my burdens over to You and let You handle them. I know that You will bring me out of this storm and as I wait on my deliverance, I will praise you in ADVANCE….”