I consider myself a baby Christian in a way. I was raised in church, saved when I was thirteen and always said I was Christian; but I didn’t have a personal relationship with God. Since I’ve found my church, Bay Area Fellowship, about four years ago, my relationship with Him has grown deeper.
But, I feel like I’m not completely getting the fulfillment out of knowing God like everyone else is. It seems that God directly speaks to everyone but me. The craziest thing is I know God communicates with me, but I’ve never heard him “speak” like everyone else says He does.
I brought this up at my church home group gathering, and my group was so enlightening on the subject. They explained to me that He does speak to me. So, after the meeting I went home washed up and went to bed. I fell asleep before I could say my prayers. That next morning about five minutes before my alarm went off I was awakened by God!
All He said was “Tasha.” I sat straight up in bed already knowing that I had heard God. I received two very important things about my relationship with God from this experience. First, He knows the desires of my heart even if I fall asleep before telling Him. Second, when He has something to say to me, He’ll say it.
“The Mighty One, God, the LORD, speaks and summons the earth from the rising of the sun to the place where it sets.”
– Psalm 50:1 (NIV)
“God, thank You for the renewing of faith that You gave me by speaking to me. As a baby Christian I need to know that You hear me. I want to believe in You because I know You, and not because I’m told to believe in You. Thank You for speaking to me so that my faith and trust in You would be strengthened. Please speak to me now…”