I am convinced there is a challenge. It is on my behalf. It is from two opposing worlds. It isn’t for my life; no, the enemy has given up on that. My life is spoken, fought and paid for. This challenge isn’t so obvious…it is for my joy. I lose my joy when I begin to question the devotion that already exists within my heart. I become anxious, which grows and expands until my joy has fallen off the edge. I slow down, and weariness sets in. I am consumed with the feeling that I’m never going to get there – like there is this line I just can’t seem to cross. Remember when we would play tag ... Read the Post
Archives for January 2010
Distractions Turn Me Into a Stale Cracker
Lately, we have had a massive influx of visitors at our house – nephews, friends, sisters and parents and sometimes multiple people at a time – it’s been crazy. Good…really good, but crazy. And distracting. I’m noticing the more distracted we are, the more unintentional we are about studying the Word, praying together and seeking God on a daily basis. We seem to drift into merely managing a Christian like life rather than being a slave to God and living what comes out of that. I say “Christian like” because I don’t know what it would look like for the Spirit to actively live through me ... Read the Post
Just Stand
Yesterday was one of my hardest days. I woke up weighed down and burdened by the challenges facing my family. The stresses of finances, slow to come promises and past regrets threatened to plunge me into a state of depression. I repeatedly kept encouraging myself through song, verses and sermons on Daystar and The Word Channel. After a while, I felt like I needed to scream, so I excused myself from the family and went into the bathroom. I closed the door behind me and sat on the ground in the dark and cried out to the Lord silently: “Jesus help me please!” While in tears, I kept asking ... Read the Post